Friday, August 14, 2015

#dream #thinkinginpictures #fear #love #dontforgetyourkindheart #chezelleswag

     I will think of you. In the light of the morning, in the small light of night. I will think of you. We can dream together. We can visit, share our stories, share our fears. A dream is our waking fears played out. These are the stored feelings or fears that lay inside our conscious and subconscious minds. They are existent in all of the waking worlds ideas, pictures and feelings. Really, anything stored inside if your mind. In dreams these things come to life. Sometimes wonderful and sometimes terrible, and sometimes wonderfully terrible. Our minds bring our fears to us in these forms for us to conquer. Our subconscious mind brings the scariest moments to the forefront in our dreams. It has a real purpose. Nothing in our waking life could ever be as bad as our worst dreams, (well at least most of the time there are always exceptions to the rule). These dreams give us the power to succeed in our own lives, they give us the power to face our fear and overcome it. They give us the knowledge to go further than we thought we ever could. To walk the path that boils our anxiety through our veins, the idea that makes us want to run the other way. Most of the time this is the direction we need to go in, the fear ridden choice. I'm not saying unethical actions, and never anything that would ever hurt another soul. But in my experience you cannot grow if you don't try to stretch your soul. Change hurts until it doesn't. You have to be uncomfortable to become the next best you. A leap of faith is the first step then you have to push yourself, especially if your comfortable. Change is not easy, breaking the patterns you live in are definitely painful for all of us. Then again being stuck in a rut is also painful in a different way, of course. It takes courage to genuinely pursue life and reap its great rewards. I have no regrets, yes I know I have said that before. I cannot for the life of me, understand the point of regret. It is a completely foreign word to me. Everything that has happened to me or I have lived through made me a stronger, better person. I refuse to stop growing my spirit. I consciously keep my heart kind and whole. Be sweet, be generous, be courageous, be loving, be strong, all of these things do not have to come with an attitude. Nowadays I see a strong person and they think it gives them the right to be mean because their opinion is right. This also confuses me, if you are right there is no need to be nasty about it. You can help someone else find the way with kindness. I think sometimes we forget this and our ego gets in the way. We are the rulers of this world. We have unlimited power to change how we govern it and how we govern ourselves. I will think of you<3 everthoughtful="" neverending="" p="">

Thursday, August 13, 2015

#love #happiness #createyourownyou #yestheyareyourmonkeys #chezelleswag #itsbeenalongfewweeks

     The last few weeks have been long, haven't they? It feels like six months have passed in a mere six weeks. Heightened  emotions have been on the forefront of our daily lives. Sleep or even simply 'checking out' will not help the unresolved feelings you carry inside magically lift away. For example, have you said or heard the phrase, 'not my monkeys, not my circus'? I know I have heard it a handful of times and even seen it posted on Facebook. But here's the thing, they sure are yours and mine. If you love them. You can distance your self from chaos and we all can make better daily choices not involving stress or negativity. We as society need to maintain boundaries and a kind open heart. You do not need to necessarily distance yourself from everyone. Being connected to each other is a primal instinct that that has been with man since the creation of time. We don't always need to have an opinion on every subject. Sometimes it's better to sit and listen. Isolation brings unhappiness. Everyone needs to speak what's in our hearts and minds. If you do not get your thoughts and feelings out, they begin to have a mind of their own. They become real, even if they are non existent in reality. Have you personally lost that spring to your step? That glimmer in your eyes. Did you know that who you are and what you are meant to create is within you? Then take a moment and breathe. Breathe deep from your pelvis, up through your stomach and out through your mouth. Deep and long. Blow out your breath and imagine it going into a bucket for the highest good of all. Breathe it all out. Focus on all of the negativity or stress or heart ache leaving your body dispersing into the bucket. You can give it to any higher power that you believe in. It is always easier to quiet your mind and your heart if you center yourself. And let go of the emotion. You cannot move on from a situation or pattern until you release the emotion of it. Then go to a mirror and  tell yourself, I am wonderful, I am whole, I deserve it. You may ask what is the proverbial 'it'? 'It' means everything, plain and simple. Now this doesn't mean you deserve everything without doing anything, you do have to work hard and make choices with direct action to follow those choices. Of course we need to start a dream by giving ourselves permission to be successful and accepting of success. After all, we cannot truly appreciate anything if we have no skin in the game. Just the other day, a friend told me they didn't know what they were going to be when they grew up. By the way, I know people in their sixties that do not have a clue what they want to be when they grow up (he he). For some reason people think it's some magical experience and you will 'find it'. I think this is another urban legend that we believe in. You create who you are, try things on. Imagine a long hallway of doors, this is your life. Step inside even if you do not think it fits you. It may be something you will need later. There are no small jobs. Experience and experiment! Every experience I have had in my life helped mold me into who I am now.  And no, it never landed on me. Did I dream I would be who I am when I was young? No. Am I proud to be who I am? Yes. I had to become proficient at something so I didn't starve. I became more for my children. As the years went on I realized I had to be more for me also. I realized very young I had to make money. Originally I wanted to be a starving artist with no cares or responsibilities. I thought I could live under bridges and while away the day painting in the french countryside. This plan would have been wonderful if we lived in a utopian world. To this day my children call my childhood plan the troll plan. They said, "so you wanted to be a troll and live under bridges?" I think that is hilarious, and very true, although not as romantic as I thought of it. My life so far has turned out better than my original plan of painting under bridges. (Lol) That my friend is  good old dedication and hard work. Blood, sweat and tears makes dreams real. Don't get me wrong I love being a stylist. But it wasn't my dream. It became my dream because I chose it to be. Create your best life. Create your own you. #everthoughtful #neverendings